I won't make excuses, I have dropped the ball a little bit. At home, here, in life. Everything seems to be happening all at once and I am literally just keeping the balls in the air.
This week, my husband has been away with work and I thought I could genuinely handle just my son and I being that it was only 3 days and 5 nights. These are the three days in a very long time he has decided he will do literally everything we have ever told him not to and I am exhausted. I do not know how single parents do it so props to them. I will admit right now I lost my temper, on more than once occasion. I have had to step away from the situation on more than one occasion and yesterday... the naughty step happened because, I won't admit this to the enemy (my son) but I was defeated. I am a strong believer in using the power of words to discipline a child especially as my parents did not feel that way but then again they are of a very very different generation. That all being said, I am pretty sure I handled this week waaaaay better than a year ago me would have so self-five to that!
So the changes. Well I have joined a choir for one. This was my third week and I absolutely love it. I have been looking for one to join for a very long time and despite the fact the majority of women are retired, they're all so young-minded and fun and it reminds me of what I have been missing all of this time. I loved to sing at school and in fact my husband has said on more than one occasion I have the weird ability of knowing the lyrics to a ridiculous amount of songs. As a mum, it's nice to have that me time and I know I'm really really lucky to have it. I am really looking forward to Christmas when we have a bunch of concerts lined up and my family can hear us.
My husband has been in transition, moving to a new company and learning the ropes all over again. He finished his stint as a stay at home dad in the last couple of weeks while I took on some more hours at work to help out and I think despite loving the bonding time with our son, he was relieved to be back having adult conversation again. I think the whole experience has been a bit of an eye opener for the whole family. I am pretty certain I need to find my niche away from my current company and pursue it with all of my energy. I know there is something out there that will challenge my mind, that I will enjoy and will also pay me for the pleasure.
Finally my son has started up music classes for toddlers, he doesn't seem to enjoy it and seems to spend the whole class desperately trying not to interact. This is the same boy who dances to the radio and sings twinkle, twinkle and no more monkeys jumping on the bed to me. I do not understand him. While the classes are more about the introduction of instruments, structure and listening through music, I am getting the impression my son just does not like the structure. Unfortunately, this tough as my son is going to have to learn a class environment in the next two years.
I realise this doesn't sound like a lot at all (there is probably more I cannot think of right now) but these and mothering have kept me so busy. I cannot wait for this weekend and hopefully having a lie in. I will definitely be counting my blessings, my husband will be back again. What have you been up to? Anything exciting?
~AB~
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